Facing Our Fears With Psychedelic Meditation

Facing Our Fears With Psychedelic Meditation

Facing Our Fears With Psychedelic Meditation

Lately, I’ve been facing some big fears. Fears that don’t want to be faced, fears that are much happier lurking just out of the corner of my eye, whispering in my ear. Creating an anxious swirling in my belly that I’d rather ignore.

Often, when we think of facing our fears, we think of taking some sort of massive action. We think of standing up to someone at work, coming clean with our family, starting a project that we’ve been holding off on. This is one way, but I’m talking about another.

I’m talking about facing fears in meditation. On Sunday, I was on my cushion. Suddenly, I could hardly breathe. My belly was tight, and it was shaking. There was both discomfort and confusion. I pretended I didn’t know what to do about it, except I did. I just didn’t want to do it. Witness it, lean into it, look it squarely in the face. This horrible anxious clenching in my low belly. As it pulsated painfully in my awareness, I started to hear the voice of fear and self-hatred, ‘you don’t have enough, you aren’t enough’. Over and over, like a mantra. 108 repetitions of self hatred.

Then I can relax

I do find that when I get to this place, I can relax. Once the secret pain is finally our in the open, I can sit with this. I’ve sat with worse. This is just bound up frustrated energy. It’s been rattling around in my body for god knows how long, and now it’s being released. All I need to do is sit and softly watch it, and it self liberates.

And that’s what happened. The mantra quieted, the tension dissipated, and I was calm, and experienced a spaciousness in my belly that was quite pleasant. I’m not naive enough to think that these thoughts are gone forever, or that I’m now going to vibrate at a level of greater abundance (whatever that means.) but it’s probably that this particular form of anxiety will dog me less in the future. I’ll be less likely to make bad decisions based on these hidden thoughts, and more likely that I’m able to notice and return to a more centered place. I’m less likely to try to ‘solve’ this negative self talk with some kind of maladaptive compensatory action.

Taking action from a place of fear and insecurity is never smart.

Fear is a call to pause and return to a place of centered presence, it’s not a push to run head first into action. Fear based action rarely has the results that we want.

This is why I offer Sitting for Psychonauts.

I want us all to learn how to face these aspects of ourselves in the most skillful way subtle. I want us all to have the opportunity to deal with our psychic garbage in the most subtle way possible. I don’t want you to have to face your self hatred when you’re high, at least not for the first time. Let’s get lay some ground work for encountering the strange and difficult parts of our minds, so we aren’t taken by surprise. Let’s practice being in a place of centered presence, and let’s practice returning to that place when we get pulled out.

Sitting For Psychonauts Class is this Saturday, at the lovely Heart Tribe in Fairfax. You can register here. Looking forward to sitting with you.

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Two Ayurvedic Tips to Support Winter Psychedelic Integration

Two Ayurvedic Tips to Support Winter Psychedelic Integration

Two Ayurvedic Tips to Support Winter Psychedelic Integration

“Little Darling, It’s Been a Long Cold Lonely Winter”

This George Harrison quote constantly runs through my head in the winter time. Any time the sky is the slightest bit gray or the temperature drop to 55 degrees, I desperately want to bundle up and drink tea and cover myself in warm Ayurvedic oil. I’m a big baby when it comes to the weather. To think I occasionally entertain the idea of moving to the woods of New England, Walden-Style. BRRR

Even though the winter hasn’t really been that long or cold (and hopefully not too lonely) for those of us in the North Bay, that’s no reason not to avail ourselves of all the warmth and nourishment, and coziness that is available to us. Ayurveda has is super helpful when it comes to this sort of thing, and I’ll offer a few of my favorite practices for warmth below.

Integration Circle

For me, our integration circle is a place of warmth and nourishment as well. Even though I’m the ‘facilitator’ and not a ‘receiver’, I receive a lot from the circles. I can drop a lot of the crap I’ve been carrying around with me, drop into a state of presence that is so valuable, and listen and connect. My physical body tends to drop some of its armoring and tension, and I am able to feel a sweet sense of flow through my tissues, that feels like it is feeding me. Also, being in a conscious circle after all of the frenetic activity of the holidays is also deeply grounding. I hope this, or something similar is true for you, as well.

Please reserve your spot for the circle through the website or by emailing us. Come, get grounded, connected, nourished. I hope you can make it and look forward to seeing you.
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A few of my favorite Ayurvedic warming and nourishing practices:

winter psychedelic integration
1. Warm Sesame Oil Self Massage
Sesame Oil is an Ayurvedic master medicine. It is said to feed the tissues of the body right through the skin, to relieve tension and stress on a deep, nervous system level, and to keep the body warm and supple when the days are cold and brittle. There is more, a comprehensive discussion of the benefits of Sesame Oil goes way beyond the scope of this email.
The Practice:

  • Buy yourself some organic, untoasted sesame oil. It’s probably at your local health food store. Untoasted.
  • Put some in a BPA free plastic container. I suggest plastic, because this can get slippery, and you don’t want to deal with broken glass when you’re naked. Trust me.
  • Put your container in a pot of water and heat the pot. Let the oil get warm enough so that when you put it on your skin you go, ‘oooohhhh’. ‘ahhh’ is also acceptable. if you say ‘ow’, it’s too hot.
  • Go into the bathroom and cover your skin. Gently massage any sore areas. Have fun with it.
  • Finish up with a warm shower. don’t use too much soap, just let the warm water bake the oil into your skin.
  • Clean up as best you can, watch our for slippery spots on the floor.

2. Dates in Ghee
winter psychedelic integrationDates in Ghee is considered to be a Rasayana, or rejuvenation formula. I was introduced to them by Joseph of Joyful Belly. I’m going to include his recipe here. He does a much better job of explaining it all that I would. Please take some time on his site. It’s wonderful.

I hope you try these, and if you like having this sort of thing included in the blog, please let me know, and I’ll add some more yoga and ayurveda in the future.